"What? Are you being Serious?"

Sorry the pictures are so little. 1st one- her leg 2nd - her with her are over her head 3rd- face 4th- front view of face,with her hand over her right eye..

So, yesterday I woke very excited to go to our 3D ultrasound. Ben and the boys were coming and I was excited to see our little fella.

While I was getting ready, I remember thinking, how crazy would it be if we found out we were having a girl and not a boy. I quickly dismissed this crazy idea, For heavens sake, I saw the little pee-pee at our 15 week appointment. Dr. Alajo had told me it was a boy. I had a few boy names that I was trying to talk Ben into and I think we may have had it narrowed down to either Cache, Dane, or my favorite Cormac. ( It would have taken a lot of talking into with Ben)

So off we go. We arrive at the Dr office, checked in and are called back about 20 minutes later ( not bad for a OB office). The boys take the seats and I plop myself down on the table. Jae asks " mom, are you sick", no buddy, I have to sit here so she can look at the baby.

We get started and I quickly tell her, we already know it is a boy, but maybe you should just make sure. She goes about her business, checking to make sure all organs are functioning and that the legs and head are the right size. She never says , yes you are having a boy, but she didn't say no either. I just assume that yes we are having a boy and that she just didn't tell us. She is taking her time with us, talking to the boys, giving them suckers, joking around with us. Then she starts to look at the face, she keeps saying " what a beautiful face, big lips, so cute" I'm like, what the heck, how can you tell. It looks more like a blob to me, but I can see a baby in there. I can see that it has ears, and that its hand is over one eye. It does not like to be bugged and keeps moving. So active, it does a total 180 from the beginning of the appt to the end. During on point, it yawns and we all "ooohh". Boston says something and its little mouth opens and closes, it looks like it was talking back to Boston, so cute. We are loving watching our little boy. Then she tells Boston and Jae to come here, she has something for them. She takes them over to her side of the bed and hands them some pictures and is whispering to them. All of a sudden it hits me, She has not told us what we are having, what if she is telling them we are having a girl. I again dismiss this. Boston takes the pictures over to Ben and shows him. Boston can see a leg in the first picture and then Ben asks what is in the 2nd picture. Boston doesn't remember and so she says, " Tell them its not a brother". "WHAT!" I say, are you being serious?" In my most shocked and horrified voice. I'm not ashamed, pure panic raced through me as she said this. A GIRL! I just started to cry. I have a HUGE fear of having a girl. The night before we found out what Jae was, I cried, so scared that it might be a girl. I look at Ben and he is grinning ear to ear. He has always known it was a girl. He told me, that he always told people, " the Dr, said boy" but he never actually said it was a boy.

So here we are having a girl, and after about 18 hours of being in shock, I can say I'm actually really excited to have a girl. I even took the boys shopping today and bought a couple of dresses for her. We could be in a lot of trouble, there are so many cute clothes. Boston was just as bad as I was. He kept bringing me shorts and shirts and shoes for her. I was good though and only bought 2 dresses. But there were some cute shoes that would have went with those dresses, who know, you needed more than one pair of brown and one pair of black to go with kids outfits.

Well, I will try and post a few pictures when I get them scanned, so everyone can try and see her giant lips and ears. I hope that she has Ben's lips and Jaegan's ears, and Boston's Brain.

I still cant believe that it is a girl. However, I know that she was ment to be. When we decided to have another baby, we were hoping for a girl. ( At lease Ben was) and I know that some one's prayers were answered. Seems the Grandmas were all praying pretty hard for a girl.

Well, little Ellsie, we are excited you are coming. Heaven help me.